Who am I?
The interesting question that everyone is constantly longing to answer completely. I don't wish to answer it in it's entirely. I think I have MUCH to learn and grow into and from, and so I don't ever wish to stop learning about myself. Simply put: I'm a New York City raised being from Washington Heights. A primarily Hispanic, mainly Dominican neighborhood at the tip of Manhattan. I went to school at Richard R. Green's High School of Teaching, which is located near South Ferry, opposite poles of life. Where I was introduced to The Future Project not-for-profit program that transformed the way that I understand the world, and allowed me to gain the idea of possibility thinking without even knowing it at the time. Currently, I'm a college junior at Canisius College. This small, middle of nowhere (to anyone from a big city, at least) college that has changed and molded me into the person I am now. A person who believes in giving to the world, and who explores ideas far beyond the regular thoughts of a person who's just going through the motions of life, but doesn't question any parts of it that they can't fully understand.
My mind runs complexly. I'm a female, who dates other females, but I wouldn't consider myself a lesbian. I'm a Hispanic minority, who only knows the half of my culture roots through solely Spanish speaking parents at home, who were born in the Dominica Republic in the 60s, so our lives are drastically different. I like to dress in what society considers "male" clothing. That's completely cool with me. I'm also a person who LOVES music. I connect to rhythms and lyrics in a way that can only be described as tribal. It comes from my culture, it has to, because I move and I love and I feel music in a way that soothes my soul. I write poetry, and love spoken word, for it's abstractness, and for that even when there's not a meaning you understand, or one at all, there's always meaning. Fashion is also important to me, because if you look good, you feel good, and I believe in the Law of Attraction, so the New Thought theory states that if I feel good, and positive about myself, I will attract positive energy and vibes. I've experiences enough in life to consider myself quite an interesting set of eyes to see the world through. Here's what goes on in my mind.
The point of this blog is nicely defined in the Russ lyrics "This is me, talking to myself. I'm just flying towards the truth. I'm just talking to myself." I connect to that in that this blog is really for me. It's mine. I have so many thoughts in my head about the world and all of it's concepts, and abstractness in everything that I don't and can never understand in my own lifetime. My mind is constantly consumed by these non-mainstream thoughts and I love it, and sometimes it consumes me. This is my outlet. So, in the nicest way possible, fuck all the other opinions in the world. This is me talking to myself. HOWEVER, if anyone- if any one person- feels connection, safety, truth, or love when they read/see/hear anything that I rant about on this blog, then that's pretty cool. If so, contact me, because I would love more individuals to chat with about these things.
