Lovers Transaction

I want to write a poem and I don't know exactly in which direction I want it to go, I just know that it'll be about you. but don't get me wrong, that is against my will. my problem is that my mind seems to wander to nothing but moments in the past that have you as the staring role. and every time I catch my thoughts run wild I stop myself. I think of how far away the breath of you really is and.. I'd rather save myself the discomfort. you left me. probably for a better life than you would have had if you stayed. but the absence of you is always a constant reminiscent of unwanted thoughts and uncharted territory. I do miss you. un poquito. inside joke. I miss those too by the way. but they're just curtain things I'm not allowed to say cause you're living better now and who am I to complicate. besides.. it won't be too long of a process. I'll be seeing ya.